Hubby is in a far away land for a month now and I am truly, madly, deeply lonely. For over five years, my day is incomplete without him. Yes, we made it a point to spend time together everyday and it is an irony that it’s impossible to do so now that we are married. Gosh, I am used to having D around and our current situation is distressing. Every love song that tells about being apart suddenly becomes overwhelmingly meaningful that it gets into me — sooo badly! I thought that missing someone like “crazy” is figurative but lately, I say it’s literal. I could say that numerous songs definitely convey how I feel that’s why MUSIC has been my perfect companion nowadays.
One day, D sent me a text message: “If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am. Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?” — an excerpt from “If You’re Not the One” by Daniel Bedingfield. Yes, I heard it before and I thought it was about a desperate guy who is obviously hopeless romantic. But when I checked it out, I felt its passion — and I listened to it as if I have never heard it before:
If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I’ll never know what the future brings
But I know you’re here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms
Hmmm…beautiful!!!
I MISS YOU D! Hope to see you soon!
body’s needs starting this year and so I made a list of the routine I should ponder the whole year through. Hopefully, by doing it regularly, I will develop a good habit out of it without alibis hahaha
